lacking nothing. complete in Christ.

READY TO FIND MY RHYTHM !

I have been so inspired to get off my butt and do stuff now more than ever.  I am so ready to become my best self.  I hate saying that kind of because it implies that I’m not being my best self now.  If I had to label it, I would say I am currently in my satisfactory  state of mind self.  I’m happy with my life, yet there are things that still escape me.  Inspirations and ideas have still yet to be fulfilled.   I have been inspired to document my life by any and all means necessary.  This means blogging, vlogging, making scrapbooks, taking more pictures, writing down conversations, treasuring each moment more intentionally…  I just wanna be way crazy.  Mhm, I went there.

Life is so very fleeting and technology is not forgiving when it comes to sucking up any and all free time we have (and even time when we are supposed to work).  I would hate to spend one moment of my life thinking, “I wish I would have done ____.”  or “I wish I could remember _____”.  

Why wait? Why not BE PRESENT here and now?  I want to be here now and take in how special each moment of every day truly is.

Not really sure how to get started … but I’m sure that I’ll find a pattern eventually.  So stoked to really LIVE.  I am ready to find my rhythm.  Ya ya, oh yaaaaa.

It’s funny.  I have so much that I want to do, so little of it involving the things that I have to do, and not enough time to get it all done.  I am in the grey area of being overwhelmed and being so filled with joy that I want to shout it from rooftops across the world.  I am filled with an immeasurable amount of inspiration and passion to do and accomplish everything in my heart.  The LORD is so good.  How could I not be thankful for this life and the abundance of love He showers me with daily?

ps: the sunset tonight was ballin’.  so happy that beau and I got to chase it a little.

Familiar Fiend

Satan has been on my back lately and I hadn’t realized it until this week.  I have had such strong feelings of inadequacy and doubt that have been trying to dominate all my thoughts.  I have been listening to all those negative emotions that have been weighing in on me, but now I fully aware of what is really happening.

I have an incredible opportunity to participate in this summer.  As I was preparing to write letters for sponsorship, feelings of being overwhelmed and insufficiency were taking over me.  The weight on my shoulders was just growing heavier. It has become exhausting.  Kaleo may be the most exciting program that I will ever participate in my life.  I will be meeting new friends and grow closer with the ones I already have in addition to learning skills that will equip me to help further God’s kingdom.  So… you can see why Satan might want to mess this up.

I also am in an incredible relationship that Satan continually tries to sabotage with my weaknesses.  He knows those feelings of doubt that I fall for and all those vulnerable thoughts that I will listen to.  Like everyone in this world, I have my fair share of moments of insecurity.  But when those moments strike, it seems that Satan does too - without mercy.   Herschel is one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met.  We are “equally yoked” and I am constantly learning from him.  The fact that we even met and that we are dating has all been so deliberately orchestrated.  Everything from our personalities to our timing (of everything that includes “us”) has been absolutely impeccable.  There’s a reason.  So, Satan tries to mess with that a lot too.

These are the moments when I take the time to remember just how wonderful and big my God is.  That He has never left my side, not even for a moment.  I remember that He holds my life in His hands.  That my moments of weakness will eventually develop growth in my near future.  So Father, I’m looking up to you.

My eyes are welling with tears because I know that You’re here.  I know that even when I feel like I can’t handle life coming at me from so many different directions, You’re there to help me manage.  I know You are orchestrating each and every moment of my life.  There have been too many “coincidences” in my life to consider this season I’m in a coincidence.  I do not believe in luck.  I believe that You have me right where You want me and Satan cannot stand that.  He hates that I am on the edge of my seat waiting for You lead me, waiting to hear Your voice, listening to hear that You love me.  He’s doing everything in His power to break me down.  Well, no sir.  It will not happen because You’re on my side.  ”If God is on our side, who can be against us?”

I DO NOT HAVE THE ONE PROBLEM THAT GOD CANNOT HANDLE.

You’re here with me.  STILL.

No Caffeine What What ?

I have faced the cruel hard facts.  I took a good, hard look in the mirror.  And the truth is, I don’t look like I did almost a year ago.  Thanks, college.  The freshman fifteen has made its way to me.  It is time to make a change.

I spent my spring break getting inspired to live better, eat better, think better…. just BE better in general. This week I’m starting out with a no caffeine cleanse.  I ingest who KNOWS how many ounces of Diet Coke a day.  It’s such a terrible habit.  I am not even sure what my body functions like without it.  That’s what I’m setting out to do this week.

Oh yeah, and that means no chocolate either.  

IN A NUTSHELL—>

My Goal for this week: 

• No caffeinated soda
• If I’m feeling really strong, no soda at all
• No chocolate or desserts
• Drink at least 8 cups of water a day
• Workout Twice 

I can feel inspiration coming on.
I can feel it in my bones.
I am anticipating what He’ll do.

God is working.