lacking nothing. complete in Christ.

Remembering.

it’s been so long since I’ve actually blogged on this thing.  I was just reading my new year post from last year, which is considerably smaller than every year before that in the past.  Maybe this is because I realize that no one really cares about the intricate details of my life.  Or maybe I’m just lazy and that was the excuse I landed on.

I have experienced so much anxiety lately.  About death.  About the past. The present.  The future.  The unresolved things and the things not yet endured.  I have so much “bleuahfeioa” going on.  What is that?  I’m not even sure.  

I want to remember not to forget my life.  There are rarely moments when I take time to be “still”.  Somehow I even forget to be still in my life despite the fact that it’s tattooed on my right foot.  

I’m learning so much.  I can’t wait to take the time to reflect on my year in stillness.  I don’t want to forget all that has happened, though it has been a heck of a bumpy ride.  These are the years that I am supposed to have said that I thrived and that nothing could hold me back.  Yet I am glued to my phone or Facebook and my comfort zone.

I don’t want to live comfortably.  It’s safe but boring.  More thoughts on this to come.

Here’s my post from last year:

2010 || 2011

At the end of 2009, I had no idea what to expect for 2010.  My prayer was that time would pass slowly, and for the most part, it has.  This year has been one of adversity and brokenness. I managed to fail at every single one of my resolutions from last year.  But I did several things over the year including visiting Hollywood, saw John Mayer (twice!), saved a life, earned new incredible best friends, snagged a man that I don’t plan on letting go of, got a tattoo, faced heartbreak and praised God in the middle of it, went to Kaleo, found a counselor, completed my first year of college,  am learning how to address areas of life rationally and so much more.  It’s been a heck of a year. 

This is the first year ever that it’s actually felt like the new year.  I am so ready for a fresh start.  2010 without a doubt, was one of the most difficult that I have ever experienced.  I’m praying that 2011 will begin a process of healing and simplicity.  A year that I will be able to smooth over what’s rough and truly work on myself and address things in me that I hate to see.  

I’m learning that there is so much in me that I was wanting to cover up, but addressing my “stuff” is necessary for a healthy life and a healthy spirit.  I’m embracing my “stuff” and I’m working on myself.  I’m ready for God to show me a new side of himself this year.  I’m ready to embark through life without fear and with fewer worries.  He is in control and when I get in His way, I only mess things up.

I’m making resolutions I’ll actually keep this year.  Here we go !

RESOLUTIONS||
1. Be praying for God to show me His heart - Grow in a deeper more intimate relationship. 
2. Become a hugger and not just wish I was.
3. Read 1 book a month for pleasure.
4. Reach my goal weight.  (This is really the year I’m gonna do it.)
5. SIMPLIFY MY LIFE. IN EVERY AREA ! 

I am so blessed.  So excited for this upcoming year.